1977 to 2013 = 36 yo.
4 years to 40.
4 years to the age of which I always see as the era of ‘the beginning of oldness’, the era when I become much closer to death.
36.
The age when I decided to wear hijab.
Moslem wear that I’ve been considering to put on for years, and it’s been my “niat” that before I die, I should have worn hijab.
But it was a long process.
A long debate with myself.
A lot of thoughts, a lot of doubts.
Enlightenments absorbed from my Pengajian, but yet tons of temptations of not wearing it occured.
Exhausting, upsetting.
Restless nights often with dreams about this “wear or not wear hijab” thing.
Alhamdulillah.
So relieved now that I’ve taken my decision.
Nothing is important as seeking bless for your life from your Great Creator.
and He, to whom you will ask for everything, will answer you with His Best answers.
Insha Allah.
~ day 2.
